First of all, thank you all for the love on my last post. I was feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I’m starting to understand that this is an illness that I have to live with for the rest of my life. I have to accept that. And I have to take the steps to treat it.
One of the first steps is to let others help me. I’ve always been independent and am not very good at asking for help. But I’m doing just that. I have a team of medical professionals who are looking out for me. I have an amazing support system of loved ones who care about me. And I have this community, which I am very grateful for. I’m lucky.
Today I started 25 mg of Lamictal. I don’t want to go on Lithium so I talked to my pdoc and we decided to give Lamictal a try. I will be on 25 mg for two weeks then titrate up to 50 mg, eventually reaching the therapeutic dose of 200mg. I’m going to use this blog to document my lamictal journey. Perhaps it can help others :-). [I’d like to point out that this is only medication I’m on currently. I have adderall but my pdoc suggested I cut it out since it was probably contributing to my mood swings.]
Honestly, since it’s the first day, I wasn’t expecting much. And perhaps what I’m about to say is just a placebo effect but here it goes anyway…
-I noticed that everything was more vivid and brighter. Sharper.
–I did not feel sad today, for the first time in weeks.
-My anger was under control.
-I did not swing from one emotional roller coaster to the next.
-I feel calm and alert.
No side effects.
So far so good. Here’s to day 1!